in meditation
or masturbation
I noticed how far away I was
and replying to some farmer from a fetish site
I said that farmers were more physically present than nearly anyone else in our society is able to be
it clicked in
late last night
that I could choose
me
somehow
now
I have that option
being aware of it
moment by moment
as I hold my posture or take a deep breath
I can be aware of everything that is around (and inside of me)
unlike journaling
or reading a book
I came out of the train into father demo square
and saw how beautiful this place is
and felt it
now Jorge is here
– we’re off to eat a play