THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS THANKS

… wa?
the night before
wednesday, right
i drove into nashville
client
very good
mmmm
i wish i would have recorded my monologue
drove back
to the shop
tired
tired
stayed up
here
til 3
then home
put some more wood in the fire
woke up Goat
who thought the house was burning down
i lay my cold body against his warm bed flesh
and dove into sleep
he left
i slept on
he came back to wake me at
2pm.
he drove me nearly an hour
through winding roads
out to Gabby’s
where the gathering was happening..
i’ve not done a large thanks giving in years
small movie and meal last year with the Blakes
the year before, just a few around a table on the northern coast with Leo
but this was huge
most were there already
eating
i didn’t bring my camera
and for the second time in 24 hours
i regretted my neglect at preparation and not having my camera with me
old empty houses we passed
through the hollars
the cliff walls
and here
all these people
all these beautiful people
all their creativity
sure
i talked to the big soft bearded ones from my waist
but so many others
and the interplays
this is a community
everyone has a story
and all the stories cross
and the constellations are a bit confusing down here..
and
as with all big gatherings
i reached my peek pretty quickly
and retreated
with a full belly
red wine mixed with ginger brew
absinth
cake
George had an instrument there that Goat had made a few years back
a nun’s fiddle?
strange beast
Mirror played a little tune
Goat played a bigger one
what a lovely man
we took our chocolate and drove home
dark
the moon amazing
like the horns on the goat beast he’d fucked in last night’s dream
what an amazing people there are here…
we watched Altman’s “POPEYE”
Goat told me he’d just died…
maybe this was the first time i followed the plot of the film?
i watched it all the time as a kid
Goat said my psyche was just like that
he dubbed some Freakazoid
and we went to sleep
i feel well rested for the first time in weeks
today has been beautiful
warm
and the whole forest is just sticks
its amazing
i’ll have to take some more pictures to show the amazing difference from less than a month ago
but now i’m up late again
wanted to give thanks
and finish my addictions:
i’m letting my silverdaddies account expire so i can’t waste so much time on it
candy
sugar daddies
all that want
wasting my time (and heart and lust)
gonna shrink my world a bit
and get some stuff done
see you when i wake