subway notes

my new phone has a special buttons to make voice-notes
-riding the subway a while ago
(5:03pm 4/7/05)
i took two notes
reminding me i wanted to write about this:
so many people on the subways sleep
nodding out
from exhaustion of the day’s work?
or the lack of oxygen
in those deep tunnels
a million crammed in people
windows sealed, now
air conditioning
nodding off
are they dreaming?
i must read books
or do yoga, qi-gung
or photograph them…
think about them.
waiting is always an active process for me
…

2:
so much time in the subway is used for
sleeping
waiting
kind of
drives me crazy
to watch people waste time…
but are they dreaming?
or planning out their day?
do they nodd off
“for lack of oxygen”
as bridget says?
are they listening with one year as the conductors call out the stations?
or do the tunnels
small screetchings/ (cut off)
1:
the new york city suburbs/subways
are like the groin
the genitals
of the city
the city
island
is nature
and the cement dresses it like pants
being in the subways
is not only going inside the pants
but going inside of the organs
but down here you smell the rich musk of balls and asshole
the dirt
and the seduction