[old] hurts and hungers

one of the things that i find most piquant about how lovers hurt eachother
well… for me
is
we do the same things to eachother
(each to our own ability)
if i feel bad for leaving him in my way
off on travels…
he leaves me in his
off on travles
some
but when we’re together
he’s drinking, drunk and gone
or falling asleep
when i’m reading
falling into pattern
and who started this?
who ever starts it?
there is no Starting it
it just keeps happening
and when the pattern is finally noticed
we can sit and feel sorry about it
or inject some dynamite, maybe?
try and blow the whole thing up?
it still doesn’t complete…
the only way i know
is to Move On
and try and find the one where we aren’t hurting eachother anymore
and
really
looking at the whole scope of things
i would have to say i have some faith in that
because the Hurts have got to be much less severe over the years
maybe
mostly
in that i’m getting older
and things dull down
or
perhaps i Am getting wiser and knowing more
and hurting less
thus
being hurt less
what’s going on?
the world is turning into darkness
(i’m really only alluding to winter)
but i feel like i’m waking up all of a sudden…
such excitement
hopes and possibilites
as if my heart is salivating for desires it had long given up on
here we are again
let the banquet begin!