…
i wanted to open a coconut for brunch
and couldn’t find the machete
where did it go?
i walked around and around
asked the boys
no one knows.
i remember last using it when i found the sugar cane
shaving it off
sharing it with the guest…
i remember wanting to take it back to my yurt
so i had one at hand
to open coconuts back there
and use to chop up the forest
but i don’t remember taking it back there..
i looked around
i looked and looked
nowhere
i looked under the yurt
in the brush
in piles of things i’d ripped up
i wracked my brains
trying to remember where i left it
— i had no recollection of actually using it over here
except when i cut the sugar cane down.
where did it go?
eventually i gave up and got another one and had my coconut…
much later in the day
i was digging in the forest
in fact
trying to knock down trees again
wanted the little crow-bar i’ve been using for weeding and digging..
and couldn’t find it anywhere
i looked where i usually put it
but not there..
i looked around…
where was it?
i tried to remember the last place i used it
where i left it
… i always leave it in the same place..
so maybe it’s in the sticks
in the twigs
— the last time i remember using it was when my client came over and watched me work on friday
maybe i got distracted and left it on the ground?
i looked and looked
and couldn’t find it anywhere…
(**EDIT** the day after i found it in the grass by my basil bed)
did one of the boys come and take it?
i doubt it
but i was paranoid and confused
why am i losing things all of a sudden?
useful tools
should i buy new ones to replace them?
should i keep looking?
needle in the hay…
just something else lost in the jungle.