Just so you know: i love Amsterdam.
it’s the water.
it’s the familiarity.
it’s the pain i’ve suffered here
… it’s all the joy.
it’s the moon almost being full tonight!
it’s the last night after only one week..
i’d get tired of it, i’m sure
but right now
i love it.
a few highlights
coz i’ve got to catch a plane in just a few hours:
hearing that madonna song about 80 times in the last two days
(“time goes by… so slowly”)
but getting to hear that 80’s mix of Billie Jean with Do it Again.
being in love with some beautiful Catalonian man tonight
(having to speak spanish!)
(in the web)
last night
ending a great day with riding through the Oosterpark
and being surprised by a very large, round, soft beautiful venezuelan/dutch guy
seeing dirty danny again
loving his musk smell
feeling him melt when i touched him
stroking his beard
: the simplicity of loving someone who needs it
when i want it.
the satisfaction of knowing that crazy dutch people are just crazy
and i don’t have to waste my heart wishing they weren’t
because this time
i’m just visiting.
seeing Juan
and having him ask for me
but take me out of his out
enacting some ritual
taking me to the web
in a dark room
in a cabin
and further extending our relationship
— the man that i learned to have simultaneous orgasms with
now we had an orgasm so complete i couldn’t tell myself from him.
loving the simming trees
seeing the old house
rubbing bellies
the houses
the houses
the water
the water
the lights
the fig bread
the stroop waffels
the herring.
i’m tired
i’ll remember more later
but i have to go!