listening to “somethings last a long time”
it is a teen-age nostalgia
it’s clear to me that i just want friends
kids…
i’d like to live in a small american town somewhere
where i live a normal
simple
boring life
where i don’t need a car
i can ride my bike around town
i can have friends i can see
we can have confusing dramas
about love
loving
their parents will be mad at me
i’ll walk through the streets at night
talking to the trees
singing into the shadows
moon shadows everywhere
an ideal life
with all its mistakes
hopes never manifest
dreams lived every night
hearts pulled across blocks
through houses
past barking dogs
to stand outside windows
whispering
hoping they’re still awake
but walking home alone anyway
can i still have that?
goat’s just said he’s done
not happy with our relationship
so we just are what we are
golly. he didn’t last long, did he?
well
i’m hard
i’m a difficult one
but i’m not about to settle into someone else’s life
i want my own
so i guess it’s time i go get it
(again)
0 thoughts on “it's so over”
redfurrybear
Yes, you are a difficult one. I sure found you difficult. But it had little to do with you, and everything to do with limits I placed on myself, and how available you made yourself to challenge those limits.
Don’t change.
dominicvine in reply to redfurrybear
(laughs)
i love ya Mikey…
or whomever you are…
naylandblake
Sorry to read this kiddo.
dominicvine in reply to naylandblake
it’s alright
i’m not really what he needs/wants anyway
and i’ve known that
and now he knows it too
i’d rather just be friends with him
and friends is a type of love
i think this is actually a healthy growth step
meanwhile
i just feel a little floaty.
uneasytruce
Yes, you can still have the life you envision.
Begin where you are, right now.
dominicvine in reply to uneasytruce
of course…
there’s no where else to start from…
but the thing about relationships…
they’ve got to be Co-Created
and that really only words when you’ve got two people on the same page
i don’t think we are.
and that’s alright
i’ve known that the whole time
it doesn’t seem like a shock to me
just some famliar ache
like waking up with stiff fingers
it wears off through the day
i’ll be OK