…i’m telling you why…

i still feel incredible anger towards the church occasionally
but why don’t i hate them (like my peers)?
why don’t i hate Hitler?
Easy Targets. Coward’s Choice
it’s much more difficult to find love and compassion for universal targets of hate
and i have some arrogance left yet

it’s not Hitler or Nazis or Christians that deserve Hate anyway
let’s raze Hate to a form of Love
negative love
but still
Attention: the currency of Love
intense. obsessive even…

it’s people that deserve the hate
people in general
people in specific

and more importantly
it’s people who deserve the attention
it’s people who deserve the understanding and compassion

what is it that led us to live twice our average life span?
how long have you lived this life? and the last? and the last?
how long did you live four hundred years ago?
what miracles of science can keep you going now
into your 70s… 80s… 90s…
“keeps the heart going”
and even without magic pills…
is it The Great Recorder
that which can never be forgotten…
a more sinister Santa Claus
same big white beard
a tad more gaunt
zombiesque

repression is a magic tool for concentration
pressure cooker
cauldron
Crucible, didn’t they say…?
to compress, strengthen
Yes: Repression can make you last longer
go the extra mile
worked for the steam engine
(i’m melting down, don’t mind little ole leaky me)

but the tear that fell from his eye
…

Old Men!
Who I Revere!
Lust after!
Desire!
What Horrible Tortures have you Submitted yourself to?
Your Beliefs….
What Magic have your Fears given you?
the New-Commer;All-Father
fear and anger, but gives you an iron grip on life

we…
all I want is to Super Nova
the new Generation
… and if i could take you all with me

of course
all i want is for you to hold me too
so that i might turn into a diamond…