Seattle is a go.
i was thinking about it
saying to myself
>> i don’t really need to do that, do i?<<
and got two fortune cookies saying the exact same thing
about how i have a good business venture coming up
Yes
live in seattle for a while
travel?
Michael?
closer to the city
closer to my own
Alone – ness
Leo and i had a custumarily frustrating Mercury Retrograde conversation
which was the first time i saw his Taurian possessiveness
though he did not cop to that…
i did my best to listen
respond
and keep quiet.
eventually we ended up in bed together
alone
one night.
i read to him for a bit
some old story from a '95 RFD about guys in a bath house…
the first facet of "Engine Summer" by John Crowley
warm
we started talking
… i was just going to let it slide…
but he brought it up.
We talked about it for a while
it was good to talk about it
though hard
the type of love we have…
the way he feels
what i feel
i didn't feel like i was making a mistake then
it was very clear
… the clarity of conversation
but now, alone and thinking, the doubts creep in
only because they are supposed to
second guessing is a way of affirming
when it's talked about
it also becomes more real
(unless you're talking about the future, that is)
so i've been walking around today
tidying up the house
moving things outside in the lush wetness
wondering how many books i should take up there…
how many clothes?
should i get a ride with someone from the bay area?
fill the car with some boxes and my bag
plan to be there for at least three months?
a quarter year
is that enough to feel it out?
or should i just go with my back pack
and see how it feels when i arrive
play it out
and come back down to fetch stuff
if that's neccessary
got a few weeks
moon waning
mercury retrograde
asking us about our travels and experiences
stay home
and rest
a few massage clients coming up
resting
and wondering
staring at the fire
and tying things up.
0 thoughts on “going to seattle”
winstonthriller
Ah…Engine Summer…my very favorite book. The last page turned my stomach to ice. It was like stepping on a rake in the grass–mind under matter.
laura_collins
Hi, Vyne!
It’s Laura/Jade.
We chatted for a while, three years ago, over email. I remember I found you on the longhair site. Anyhow, I stumbled across one of the emails you sent me, and I thought I’d google your name to try and contact you again, and here I am! I hope to hear back. I read some of your entries, and will likely add you to my friends list, if that’s fine with you.
Namaste,
Laura
soclosesofar
I can visit Seattle much easier.
dominicvine in reply to soclosesofar
yeah
and i can come to portland much easier from there too
i wanna make music, brendon
HELP!
(laughs)
orange_groves
You write so beautifully. Thank you.
dominicvine in reply to orange_groves
Hey Jeff
good to hear from you
i don’t exactly remember where i found you
but i remember reading a bit of your journal
and found you cute
and realized you lived close to… my home base
so i added you
glad you enjoyed my writing
(i always feel i respond inadequately to compliments, but Thank you)
i just went and looked at a page of your days
and responded to a few
blessings and hugs
and
tell me if you’re coming up to Harbin
you’d be welcome to visit
(or i’d meet up with you there)
…dominic