Question: For Any who would answer it… When:Ever

my own response (which begged the question)
after i lay on his chest
breathing into his neck
and fell to his side
breathing into my chest
after i turned on my side
so he could wrap his arms around me
and i placed my hand on his hip
and listened to his breathing slow
he fell asleep
my mind instantly shot off somewhere…
i was thinking about writing something
thinking about the relationship of something to something else
which brought me back to him
and i wished so desperately that i could just feel him
that i could just be present with every part of him
that all my feelings could be unencumbered
swimming with his
i envied that he could fall into sleep so easily
like a dog shakes off water, or a fight
some natural response that let his body come back into balance
that allowed him total presence with me
a shudder passed through the length of him
it’s always been like this for me
i’ve always wanted to be fully present with a lover
before, during, after orgasm
but the blow out always inspires wonderful thoughts in me
sometimes neurotic
but usually epiphanic
precious
oh… if only we could go there together.
well, i explained the nature of god to him afterward
when we came back to our separate selves on this plane
he’s jewish, so, you know: naturally terrified of god
it’s a laughing matter
milk and cookies
cows are filled with milk AND hamburgers.