so, the night before i left town
i’d been painting the golden moldings in my apartment for hours
and was asphyxiating from the fumes
Jorge and i went out for a walk
i forced him a rushed way
being a total control freak
and feeling on edge
all the stuff i wanted to do
not enough time
and TIRED!
(and high from pain fumes)
we went to eat at Albert’s Mofongo House on Dykeman street
and had some beer
which
all in all
fresh air and food and beer
i was much more relaxed on the walk back…
which is beautiful:
we can walk through the bottom part of Tryon Park
green and lush and woodsy
people in the park..
those Latins… they’re always Loitering..
being people in public!
Jorge started singing “Thriller”
and it lead into some frank and vulgar conversation
where my teen-age voice spoke up and talked about
meaningless pop music
he said
“what do you mean by ‘meaningless’? ”
‘ you know, ‘ i said, ‘ all those songs about nothing else but dancing and having a good time ‘
he replied, ” Dancing and having a good time has been a fundamental part of human existance far before society even existed… i’d hardly call that ‘ Meaningless’ ”
which struck me:
i’ve ALWAYS held that viewpoint
and some disdain for music like that
since i’ve been a conscious adult (like, age 13, you know?)
and this is the FIRST TIME anyone has ever replied like that
which razed all of my crap judgmental emotions
with simple sound logic
Amazingly
Jorge has played me tons of music (he’s given me a mix CD almost ever week i’ve known him)
that i would usually hate or just find dreadful and boring
but i love it
he’s an Emissary from the world of Humanity
People Dancing and having a good time
Living
not that he’s a big old disco queen
he doesn’t go out dancing all the time
but he loves he when he does..
our conversation tested its weight when i looked up the lyrics to “Thriller”
wondering what the fuck that song was about anyway…
and still didn’t get it
he said
“it’s about duality, what we always want and are afraid of and what we’re offering and what we’re threatening”
(ok, true, he didn’t say it all like that, that’s my interpretation)
It destroys the horizon of my tiny little world
to understand that all of the fluff pop i’ve relegated to “Crap”
also has the voice of eternity in it too
probably even Britteny Spears
and Ignacio Iglacia
and the rest of that producer-driven drivel
doesn’t mean i have to listen to it though
such opportunities for an open heart flavoured with love…