"i want your energy"

last month
some kid i’ve known for a while
sent me a slew of text messages
starting with
“can you come over soon? i’m feeling really worn out and need some dominic energy”
which kinda creeped me out
over the next few days
he sent me many
trying different angles to get me to his apartment
in the past
he’d used Lunch very often
“i’ll buy you lunch”
“i’ll make you lunch”
“i’ve got a phone i can give you”
“i know many people, i can hook you up”
this time
“there’s this hot arabic guy, just your type, stocky and hairy, we could have a hot three way”
i felt like he was a desperate vampire wanting to feed off my life
and
indeed
he acted like a junky when i didn’t come to his beckoning
and started ranting at me
case closed.
a few weeks ago
i met this big round beast of a bear at bruin buddies
and we’ve met up a few times since then
today i moved into the house-sit in greenwich village
— i’m a one minute walk from this guy
so he called me
and i went up to his place
(after having bought some vegetarian thai soup — i’m coming off my fast… this is my first “food”)
we sat and talked for a while
in his cluttered, scattered, hurricane victim of an apartment
his iTunes on shuffle
as he smoked cigarettes
ground fine weed
rolled it up
smoked it
smoked it
smoked it
told me his foot was in pain
hilarious
in his character of a bear
his white underwear under his huge belly rounding
semi-circle under the line of his white t-shirt insufficient from the bulge
just as i was about to leave
he asked me to come to the couch
i told him i felt a bit ill from eating
and he said to just sit down a minute
then he put my hand on his foot and said
“i just want your energy. i want your hand on my foot. i want your energy there”
just like that.
i like that New Yorkers are honest
but honest in vampirism?
i was a bit freaked out
especially because i wasn’t feeling well
(still recovering..)
i harnessed some eternal energy
attuned some reiki
and put my hand there
he came really quick
and i pulled his energy into his foot
shot it back through is body
and let it roll in waves through the both of us
… for a half hour
good
fine.
people often say
“you’ve got great energy”
the guy i fucked last friday
great sex
lots of fun
he was completely blown away
saying i was a wizard
indeed: we had an excellent connection
and Jorge said he felt me immedately
the first time i put my mouth on his cock
‘i could tell you wanted my creative energy… and i wanted your energy… so it was an even exchange and i was happy to give myself to you for you…”
Yes.
so long as things are balanced… somehow.
i guess things are always balanced, right?
no
the world is very out of balance in many ways
so i do need to be wary.
meditate
meditate