Tempering

SO
i met Ross at the airport alright (wednesday)
my plane was about 20 minutes late
his was about 30 minutes late
it all worked out enough that i could post to my LJ from Jet Blue’s free WiFi
then walk over to Terminal 7
meet him
wait for bags
then catch a cab to 79 clinton
then rush directly out the door
up to Times Square
— i don’t spend much time in Times Square…
but it was much more fun being there with a Tourist friend…
and going to see a Show!
we went to see “The Pillowman”
having seen three of the main actors in many movies
i was instantly endeared to the piece
it was funny
witty, intelligent, blah blah
the main theme (that i received) was about what responsibilities we have for the art we make…
how it came to be made… how it might help us… but what consequences it has on those who partake in it…
reminded me of a lot of my feelings about the beautiful written and horribly depressing books i read in highschool
Kafka, Wasser, Grombrowicz, Schultz, Camus, Satre…
it certainly left me feeling a bit shock
horror, violence– gratuitous
humour…
and then a kinda desperate ending
but OK
ok ok…
we ate at better burger
and came home.
Ross is 56
from australia
and has been travelling around the US since Junaury 16th or so
he won’t be home again til January 24th of next year
commendable
and i know how exhausting it can be
so he spent almost the entirety of the next day in bed
but for a few hours
where we watched
The Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind
Bridgett watched it with us
and it was great to have her there
she laughed at all these parts i forgot were funny
it still brought lots of tears to my eyes
perhaps even more than before
… such loss… nothing to do about it.
such mistakes… so human.
a new thought on this viewing
(and something i’ve been thinking about a lot anyway)
: the crazy tricks we pull on ourselves to keep our selves split up into genders…
the gender difference…
the soul-mate schism..
He has her in his life to complete all of these parts of himself he’s too shy… to embarrassed to own and empower himself with
this happens in most relationships: gay or straight
in one way or another
is that sad?
no
not sad…
necessary?
no.. not necessary
fun… i guess
in that human kinda way
but it ties karma up so much (as Chango said..)
when we’re with a partner and tie our karma with theirs
it makes us personally responsible for every action They make as well
yes, two souls together
and
for us imperfect folk
it’s twice the pain
gotta
let it
Slide.
Huuuuuuuuuuuuuuu
anyway
we then walked around SoHo
i felt good being the tour guide
then took the train up to Times Square again to see
Doubt
Which was OK…
it made me feel defensive and scared and frustrated
the way Church does…
but i liked how it presented church as a place where the working man has time to think about his life
(instead of just sweat through it)
and share a common bond with his neighbours…
being in Faith… or Doubt.
however
i took the story to mostly be about intollerance for homosexuals in the catholic church:
the Mother Superior’s main motive for getting rid of the priest is not that he DID do something
but that she could tell he’s “That Way” and therefore Unfit to be in Service
and she worked like the devil to get rid of him
explaining
“in working for God you have to step away from God sometimes to make things right”
— she justified her lying
obsession…
i dunno
it struck a vulnerable chord with me.
and after that
Ross and i took the bus back down town
he went back to 79 clinton
and i invited Bridget out to see
Apostle of Hustle
an off-shoot of Broken Social Scene
same lead guitarist/singer.
it was a great show
there was a girl doing flamenco dancing as part of the percussion for a few songs!
then B and i walked around the LES
with the hipster kids
— it felt alright.
that was the first night i’ve worn my new glasses…
it was interesting
everything warps at the edges
kinda gave me a headache
but i like the way they feel.. i like being able to see the detail again.
the next day
Ross and i also spend most of the day in bed
then i spent quite a few hours up-loading more old writings to my LJ
stuff from 2003 and 2002
emails i sent to individuals and stuff i wrote for friends in general
— couldn’t find a few of the things i was looking for
and i feel like there is so much more should be included…
i like the idea of making this my definative digital journal
— filling it with my writings from the past as well.
i meant to spent the night watching another movie
but couldn’t get my computer to work the way i wanted it to
and got distracted with widgets and playing with other things
reading..
stayed up til three
now it’s time to head up to the gardens and see how they’re doing…
a little time in the dirt…