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the good, bad, ugly of love

Hey dominic, it’s bfurr from xtube (bfurr@breakthru.com), found your journal and parusing through…as one who loves intensely and loses horribly all that emotion you emit is the same for me…and my conclusions are identical…love is not just a feeling, an emotion, it’s a healing…when i was making love to a local guy here because we both needed sex (and didn’t get any) he commented that this was the first time he felt ‘loved’, like being washed somehow in a time where our body hair stroked away the sameness of everyone else’s ‘quicky’ and our deep kisses connected in such a way that all he could say is ‘so that’s what loves feels like’…HELL, YEAH, DUDE… so many in this world don’t want a connection, don’t want more than a fast down ‘n dirty trick…and then they wonder why life is empty, meaningless, sour…all they are amounts to conquistadors with notches of the crotches on their bedposts. I had a feeling you were into intuitive massage; massage has literally kept me alive and walking. I have done it since a child to family and friends as well, just not certified due to a condition known as transient osteoporosis. Manage it these days, the lack of good paying work has forced me to cut way back on therapy. I’ve done all those body work things as part of my love expression and care for my friends and the few partners I’ve had…yeah, living in the land of ex’s these days but we are still friends to a degree; in fact, my partner of 8 years and I are back together after I lost my home due to bankruptcy. We will always be the best of friends and have been through hell and back together. It doesn’t stop the hunt for love, though…real, deep, consistent connection which doesn’t drain you, but energizes. I’ve experienced that love from time to time, it’s out there…hard to find the good amongst the bad, the ugly of imposters…but the energy has been so powerful it literally fuses you and that other person, it’s very intense and I’ve found none that can handle the joy of that intensity. It’s spiritually charged, and kindred spirits who can handle it can have a lifetime of intense deep passion, love, laughter, healing and energy…but oh so rare. Still very much want to meet you and about 1.5 hours away from you, and sorry to hear about your kitchen crash (oh how I hate those!)…write me back at bfurr@breakthru.com and let me know how to get ahold of you.