. . . my mother paid a friend of hers to give me a massage for my birthday. it was excruciating, very deep, fast: a massage therapist trained to work at a spa has to work fast. . . and she likes working deep. . . so it just hurts. i always like to work slowly so i can work deep without hurting people. i certainly hope i don’t hurt people that much. i don’t know if that’s a good experience or not. i slept afterwards and felt very out of it for the rest of the day. zombified. . . i did make me want to go back to south east asia so i can get massage regularly. anyone want to go to thailand with me? (big cuddly bears don’t do well in hot humid areas without AC. . . i’m destined to travel alone. . . )