i forgot to set my alarm this morning and slept in til ten which was plenty of time to prepare for my client at 12:30 i had two clients scheduled when i woke up this morning two others asked for sessions i took one more had one yesterday too getting a massage (as a birthday gift) tomorrow all three clients today were new to me yesterday’s said “ok, this is officially the best massage i’ve ever had” midway through the session both he and my first today i was their first “gay” massage the guy today was 65 and had only had two massages before me both on cruises i really aim to bring love and care to my sessions but also education and simply pleasure all that i don’t shy away from pain either but do my best to keep pain on the side of pleasure yesterday’s client was someone i cruised years ago handed him my card in passing - this was our first meeting and after the massage was finished we laid in bed cuddling and listened to the entirety of Fear Of Music (am i repeating myself? it was awesome) today i got to teach so much teach taoism sciattic stretches testicle self-massage the energetic fundamentals of love-making the history of gay culture vs hemophilia in mediterranean cultures astrological ego positionings and secondary progressions with each of them i felt an immediate “old friend affection” i described the process of generating that to one of them but i have such inertia i was able to see, feel, appreciate it happening automatically especially with the last one however i know it’s not healthy for me to give three a day (but it had been a week since my last session, and i plan to take next week off) the last half hour of the third my hands started to hurt and i felt my energy bottoming out my whole body was sore by the time i got home 9 hours of detailed attention giving heavy body moving subtle energy channeling breaking up binding plowing through tension i’m so grateful after a year of almost no massage so grateful for the work the money the intimacy the appreciation the beauty: bodies still amazed at Bodies and now i’m so grateful i can go to sleep i wish i could massage everyone love you sleep well