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tickles
I
I’m trying hard for reality
searching deep for presence
I’m real, I’m present
but there is a more-full way of being
I’ve felt it
it feels different
spherical
(I say..)
multi-dimensional
if I could move like that
the Reality
putting on the suit
scepter
crown
cloak
stepping in to
when I practice
I often have revelations
of the sort I only ever got on acid
or orgasm
the occasional meditation
I feel deep inside myself
have you ever been with a baby
fully opened yourself to receiving and reflecting its experience?
baby-super-molecule
(we called it)
we were all once fully alive
dying starts quite young
…when my brother would sit his bulk on me and tickle me
I learned how to pack the feeling away
not being affected by it
"it’s just a feeling, why lose control to it?"
numb and still
but now
in this practice
I feel the presence of myself
and them
us together
shared
in/with each other
and it tickles me
I love it
that giddy feeling
out of control I smile and twitch and buck
grinning and giggling
this is really good
and
perhaps
it is the key and door
back into Life