meh i was going to garden again i got all prepared for the flies meh then the lawn maintenance men showed up spraying chemicals everywhere
i harvested some lambsquaters loaded up the wheelbarrow with land soil and campost soil brought it up to the house
we made eggs and greens we watched an episode of Sweet Tooth i get it, why my friend cried i cried a bit too then we planted the tomatoes in the big pots out back then… then.. the… then…
well…
my feet were burning from the chemicals on the lawn barefoot even though i only stepped on a little of the lawn i felt it so i showered scrubbed but still they were tingling i hated thinking i would get neuropathy from this stupid lawn vanity shit so i soaked my feet in epsomsalt water while watching coinbase infomercials they paid me to watch ok then talked with a friend i know from Buddhism-world also a techie nice conversation across the ether…
i eventually sat down to have more computer troubles seemingly insurmountable blah blah Mercury retrograde
then i transcribed for an hour
ok
someone invited me over to his house for whatever reason people it’s hard to be people around each other
we played with our VR helmets together he showed me his cryptocurrency mining rigs farming mining whatever
it was ok it was what it was not what really nourishes me
what really nourishes me? it has something to do with a feeling of kinship it has something to do with a feeling of peace mutual understanding
the guy i’d talked with on the phone earlier in the day pieces of his conversation came back to me the idea he was staying with his daughter helping her recover from an accident and she’s an adult but when she would fall asleep he said it was like he was given a sleeping pill he was pass out and sleep so well
the magic of family
he doesn’t believe in magic only matter and science
i believe in “magic” and multiple dimensions
i thought of how often i’ve found asking my mom how she slept and she says “i couldn’t go to sleep til two…” and i didn’t go to sleep til too
it’s nice to feel that connection terrible to feel i may be responsible for her not sleeping well
other resonance
how are we all connected? the great sea of emotions we all swim in
mom was still awake when i got home i ate some of the chicken she made
showered again brushed teeth rinsed mouth played some VR then wrote this
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