Yeah.
so i’m in p-town
Ptown
ProvienceTown
yeah.
caught a bus from NYC up to Providence, RI
got a ride from a friend of a friend of mine from there…
turns out he’s a friend of many of my friends:
we’re paralelle boys in the world of bears
yeah
another
brother
alright.
went to the beach
went to the house
cleaned out a room to make a guest room for ourselves
then headed out to the town…
— it’s been a long time since i’ve been so agressively ignored…
people would stare at me
and when i felt it
turned to look at them
they’d look away
it became a comedy act
i commented on this to my friends
and they said
“oh, it’s the Boston Compulsion– everyone is so fucking insecure… generally, though, the more attitude… the more they ignore you the more they want you”
yeah, played that game before.
a guy i talked with on line before coming out here said this:
“GREETINGS DOMINIC .
THANKS FOR YOUR MESSASGE . WONDERFUL PROFILE . VERY HANDSOME AND SEXY . I AM PREETY SHY WHEN IT COMES TO “CLOSING THE DEAL” SOOOO . IT WOULD BE NICE TO MEET YOU … AND WE WILL SEE HOW WE FEEL … I AM IN NEED OF TACTILE ATTENTION . MY TYPE “BODY” IS NOT APPRECIATED HERE ON THE PENINSULA OF BROKEN BOYS … SO SUPERFICIAL . IT SADDENS ME AT TIMES … IT MAKES MY DAY WHEN SOMEONE LIKE YOURSELF FINDS MEN LIKE MYSELF ATTRACTIVE . ”
it instantly clicked over to “the island of broken boys” in my head
which i didn’t remember where that came from
S said “Ruolph the Red Nose Reindeer…. you know, with Burl Ives?”
both of us, syncopated, murmered
“Big Daddy”
i often hear that
in love
we are not supposed to correct
or fix
eachother
just accept eachother for who we are
and help eachother live…
Yeah?
well
i agree to a certain extent
BUT
there is no point in being in eachother’s life but to enrich it
— well, maybe just witness eachother…
but subtle help
support..
positive loving growth!
better than just watching eachother dissapear into our nerosis…
enabling our co-dependance
common, love..
common.
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